That moment when you actually JUST STOP and take a maaassssive deep breath.... and then you exhale and realise how incredibly tense you have become.
Well I just took that breath.
I just realised that somewhere along the way I forgot to pay attention to myself. Again. It's okay though, I think you kind of have to have those 'holy shitballs, what am I doing?' moments.
When I stop and think about it, I haven't meditated for probably a week (alright, maaayybe two) and when I sat down the other night to complete the final exam for my course (Yeesss!!) and was reading through my notes, I was reminded of all of the beautiful things that I have been learning about... and realised I had stopped doing them and how much stopping them had made such a huge friggen difference to my life!
I've been grumpy, distant, unenthusiastic, lazy.... bbaaww-rrriiinnggg.
Well it's time to hit F5 on that nasty 'tude and refresh my outlook!
I can quite honestly say that I much prefer 'awesome me' anyway - the version that should be my default... Why on Earth am I letting all of these external pressures get me down when I've got loads and loads of great reasons to be happy in my life! I should be using my mad skills on myself and guiding my brain back into focusing on the positives instead of dwelling in weird-space land.
I'm grateful for this awareness but it's still a lot easier said than done sometimes when you're trying to break the habits of a lifetime! I know the lesson here goes a lil something like dont give up when you wander off the path - it's gonna be a long journey, you just have to make your way back to the path and carry on.
So I'm not going to beat myself up for not paying attention to what's going on in my own life, instead I'm going to take from this what I want, which is that this was a fine lesson in how completely totally and utterly important meditation is to me and how much I benefit from it (and how much I apparently fall apart without it!).
I am reminded of how vital my daily dose of calm is :)
Here's a really short meditation for you to try - yes you should do it now - go on, give it a whirl and experience a little shot of zen;
(text sourced from one of my favourite books ever 'Teach yourself to Meditate in 10 Simple Lessons' by Eric Harrison)
This spot meditation is an amazing way to refresh and refocus during your day.
Give it a whirl and see how much you notice the difference.
On that note, I'm off to meditate. Take care and be kind to yourselves beautiful people :)
Namaste
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